Just Something I Want So Badly

I really want one of these, especially the skeleton one. If only I have some sponsors or donations. Will one of you give me one? Pretty please? :3

I just came across these on facebook, and I really really REALLY want one. That's how I love Gerard Way so much. Haha. Please give me some.

Just Questions

The feeling of hopelessness...

Do you ever think so deep that you question your existence?
Do you ever think that you had to pinch yourself just to check you're still reality?
Do you ever think so deep that you question why is everything as it is?
I am not alone with this one, right?
I say these things but these things don't actually have any meaning.
My real name isn't even Lana Slaybell.

Why do we have to be born?
Why do we have to do the stuff we should do?
Why am I asking all these questions?
So what?
What should I do now?
Who? What? Why? When? Where? How?
How does this world work?

Just a Cough

I don't like the sound of someone coughing. It disturbs me. Like, it sounds like the person is going to die. Two people of my family have cough. Those people are my parents. I think their gonna die soon just because of cough. Simbako lang. I hope they get well soon. Me? I want to die soon. I don't know whether there is heaven or hell. But if there are such things, I want to go to heaven, and I don't think suicide is going to help.

Anyways, why do I want to die? I want to die because I don't want to see people die. I won't see them die if I'm dead. So that's why. Surely that's my reason, for now.

Leave a comment, please. I like reading comments and replying to them. Thanks :)

Just Some Update

I forgot to mention here that I started taking anti-psychotic pills again. My mom doesn't know that it is only damaging my liver. Whatever, I wanted to die anyway. Haha.

My mom doesn't know the effect of that drug, and neither do I. I want to stop taking it because it's a waste of money.

Just a Cake

I just made a cake. How come every food I make these days taste like soap? Smh.

Just Kapoy

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Just Tokyo Ghoul

I'm too lazy to write my own synopsis. So I'll just copy and paste here.

From tokyoghoul.wikia.com

Tokyo Ghoul (東京喰種トーキョーグール, Tōkyō Gūru) is a TV anime produced by Studio Pierot based on the manga of the same name.

The second season, titled Tokyo Ghoul  (東京喰種トーキョーグール), began airing on January 9th, 2015. Unlike the first season, which followed the original manga, the second season was advertised as an alternate story spun by Sui Ishida for the anime.

My thoughts:

• This anime is awesome
• it has a nice storyline
• it is awesome

Just a Poem

T'was the last of the year

And the beginning of the new one

Do we even need to go on top

I want to be at the bottom

so it doesn't hurt that much if I fall

Love me, Slaybell, please

Just How My Day Went

Wake up. Cook. Eat. Facebook. Sleep. Wake up. Eat. Sleep. Wake up. Eat. Eat. Watch T.V. Blogger. Facebook. Blogger.

Just a Love Like War by All Time Low feat. Vic Fuentes

Make a wish on our sorry little hearts
Have a smoke, pour a drink, steal a kiss in the dark
Fingernails on my skin like the teeth of a shark
I'm intoxicated by the lie

In the chill of your stare I am painfully lost
Like a deer in the lights of an oncoming bus
For the thrill of your touch I will shamefully lust
As you tell me we're nothing but trouble

Heart's on fire tonight
Feel my bones ignite
Feels like war, war
Feels like war, war
Heart's on fire tonight
Feel my bones ignite
Feels like war, war
Feels like war, war

We go together or we don't go down at all
We go together or we don't go down at all
We go together or we don't go down at all, whoa

Fail-safe trigger, lock-down call
Wipe the dry clean-slate, quick, sound the alarm
No escape from the truth and the weight of it all
I am caught in the web of a lie

And the bitch of it all is that I'm running from
The desire of the people to whom I belong
At the end of the day you can tell me I'm wrong
'Cause you went to all of this trouble

Heart's on fire tonight
Feel my bones ignite
Feels like war, war
Feels like war, war
Heart's on fire tonight
Feel my bones ignite
Feels like war, war
Feels like war, war

We go together or we don't go down at all
We go together or we don't go down at all
We go together or we don't go down at all, whoa
(Let's go!)

Heart's on fire tonight
Feel my bones ignite
It feels like war (it feels like war)
Love feels like war (love feels like war)

Heart's on fire tonight
Feel my bones ignite
Feels like war, war
Feels like war, war
Heart's on fire tonight
Feel my bones ignite
Love feels like war, war
Feels like war, war
(one more time!)

We go together or we don't go down at all
We go together or we don't go down at all
We go together or we don't go down at all, whoa

Is this the end of us or just the means to start again?

Just My Recent Dream

I think I’m making this blog my dream journal. Haha.

I just woke up and I still remember my dream. I was still part of the DMMAxim, the Empowered Student Publication of DMMA College of Southern Philippines. They were packing their bags to go somewhere to attend a competition. They left without me. And then, there was my high school prom. We danced our waltz, only with Margot as my partner. Then I woke up.

Yup, that’s pretty much it.

Just Cat

Owning a cat is fun, but it is also painful.

Masahiro scratched me while I carried him :'(

Just a Nightmare

I had a nightmare. Well, not really a nightmare because I wasn't scared.

The dream was that my grandmother died and my mom was carrying the casket. The casket was small. It was like an arm's length. She was carrying the casket by carrying the plastic sando bag. Let me draw it for you.
                                             
I can't draw that well. Anyway, even though I wasn't scared, I dread the day that my maternal Grandmother will die.

Just Another Small Bisaya Post

Kapoy skwela. Kapoy mabuhi. Kapoy tanan.

Just How Things Are

There's not much to write about when you haven't left the house for 3 months. Maybe I just need to get out. There's nothing to live for. I want to drink that poisonous substance laying there by the garage and end it all. There will be no worries because I don't have to when I'm dead.

If you must know, I did not enroll for the second semester in school. For me, everything is tiring. And again, I don't want to live anymore. The reason why is that everything is a cycle and have no meaning for me.

Feel free to comment on my post if you want to. I'm looking for some internet friends with no intention to ever meet.

Just Another Nightmare

I had another nightmare. This time, the world was ending.

Just... just

This is it. I'm really gonna do it. Or am I?

Just Another Dream

I had a dream about the poetry night, but a much better version.

Just a Made Up Story

She was walking by the mall. She was shaking. She saw an old friend of hers. She waited for her friend to look at her before she will say hi. Sadly, her friend didn’t see her. What a sad life she has. She should have called her friend, but she didn’t. She was afraid of being rejected.

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There he was walking by the mall. He was grocery shopping. he realized he did not have enough money. So he only bought apples and went home.

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Fin.

Just a Thing while I was Asleep

I had a dream. Not really a dream, it was a nightmare.
I was at a school. I did not want to live anymore.
So I lied down on the ground and stayed there.
I did not eat, I just stayed there for days.
Then my sister came to get me. I did not go home for days.
I did not eat for days, too. So I coughed up blood.
I wanted to cough up blood since I was little.
I don't know why; I just wanted to.
Then I dreamed that my entire lower lip fell out.
My whole mouth was numb.
My canine tooth fell out.
Then I woke up.

Just a Small Bisaya Post

Kapoy na mabuhi.

Just... because

Telling people you're not suicidal and you actually are, doesn't make sense. That's what I'm doing. I am reassuring you I'm not suicidal, but I want it all to end already. Eighteen years is enough. Why, you ask? It's because I want to die pretty, even though I'm not that good-looking.

I may have visited 9gag too much. The thing that made me want to end it all is that one post in that site, which states "Isn't it unfair to be born out of nowhere and be forced to go to school, have a job, and die in the end?" Everything is tiresome these days. I'm planning to drink the hazardous chemicals here at home. But I know it will just be a failed attempt. I like failing on purpose. Seeing the smiles of my enemies in games gives a light thump in my chest. Haha. Okay.

So I started my second course in college last June. The first one was Bachelor of science in Accountancy. I only went to school in that course for 2 weeks. My second course is based on hospitality, with only two years, and guess what, I didn't enroll for the second semester. It's too tiresome. I will now be under the new curriculum which is K-12 if I try to enroll again. Dammit.

I'll just leave this here to calm myself. It's from tumblr. Okay. Bye.