A lot has happened this year. (Maybe that's why I haven't been writing as much in this blog as in the past.) I've met the love of my life. I went to Germany. I made friends. Went to a party and got drunk. I'm not actively having suicidal thoughts that much, except now, when I get reminded. For now, I'm in a waiting game. I'll get married soon. Didn't even think it would happen 3 years ago. Even my testament to not living past 30 years old seems far from happening now. I wonder how past me would think about all of this. I mean, some part of her knew how love is, even if she hated to admit it (e.g that essay from college about why do we love that she was and still is so proud about).
I don't wanna jinx it by writing it here, so I won't.
I'm still going with the flow and riding the wave of the sea, even though I don't know how to swim, even when he already tried to teach me. Haha. Sure, I've somehow surprisingly made a few positive plans for the future. Let's just see how things go.
