Just Something I Did and Procrastinated On

I finished it. Haha. These are the times that I sometimes wish this blog has viewers so I could promote stuff like this vid. On a second thought, I'm not really proud of it cuz my singing voice sucks. But here's the vid:

https://youtu.be/mZVigthIxeA 

Just Corrections from Yesterday's German Practice

I got a few wrong. Here's the correction:

On another note, I don't want to admit it, because of how ridiculous it is, but I guess if I have to use words for it: I'm feeling guilty about... I guess particularly about the dream I had last night. It was kind of a sweet interaction like him being nice again, and at that time we were flexing our German skills to each other?

The scene was in a classroom, so I know after that there was this female teacher tasking us to do some yoga? I'm not sure anymore. And then, I dreamt of being bipolar again, that I couldn't do it, that I walked out of the classroom to take a walk as a coping mechanism, and then I had an argument with a male coworker of the teacher's, but he wouldn't let me finish my point before he started his argument and I was so pissed that I woke up because I didn't want to listen to his bullshit.

Anyway, last Sunday, it didn't help when my sister was doing teasing sounds while I was being confused by the in game gift he gave me. Now I'm noticing that I'm saying his name often when my sister and I are having a conversation. I do not like what is happening. She teased me being kilig, too.

And I want to talk about this with my fiancé but I don't want him to feel bad or to feel jealous. Because I am committed to him and he knows that. 

I guess I can say that this guy likes me, but not romantically. I just don't like how confusing his niceness is. I don't have any intention of liking him, too. I shouldn't really feel bad about all of this, right?

What I want to do right now is to just stop thinking about it and let a few days, or even weeks, pass so it would just be yesterday's news. I'm just agonizing over this because it's still just fresh. And it doesn't help when I keep checking and looking into it over and over again. It's me who's gonna look stupid if I keep this up, when it's just nothing to him after all.

Just an August Update

It's a new month. I don't want a blank month for this blog.

^I typed those two sentences last week but I got distracted and I haven't come back ever since.

I guess the significant thing I'm trying to get out of my head is this guy from Pokemon Go who's so nice that it's giving me signals. Yesterday, he gifted me a 29-peso ticket for the froakie event, which isn't much, but still. He probably does that for lots of players in the Pokemon Go community. He's a good senior taking care of the new players. Yes, I'm going to shrug it off as that. The way I make this narrative, it may make people think that he may like me, because I think so too, a little bit. But, since he's not making obvious moves, I'm giving him the benefit of the doubt. Earlier, I made my relationship status public, just in case. I didn't even know that only my friends could see it, lol.

Anyway, my German is getting better and better. I'm not sure if I've mentioned it here before, but I'm having full conversations in German with my fiancé from time to time now. I still have the habit of looking away or closing my eyes when I'm trying to form sentences. I want to practice writing here, too. Should I try? Let's see.

Heute sind mein Papa und ich zum Einkaufszentrum gegangen. Wir kauften Lebensmittel. Während wir an die Kasse warteten, habe ich ein Pokemon Gym gekämpft. Am ende, konnte ich kein Pokemon einstellen (?), weil es zu weg war, und der (?) GPS (?) funktionierte nicht so gut. 

Ich weiß es nicht mehr 😭 Ich habe keine Ahnung, ob einstellen das richtige Wort ist, oder hinlassen, entlassen, oder was. Ich weiß es gibt ein besseres wort, das ich noch nicht kenne. Ich zeige meinem Verlobter diese zwei Abschnitte, die ich geschrieben habe, um ob ich es richtig getan habe zu wissen. I DONT KNOW ANYMORE AAA