Just Don't Want Any Controversy So I'm Posting It Here

Your phony hashtag is making me wanna kill myself.

Just a Facebook Memory of a Status I Posted 10 Years Ago

You think it will get better within 10 years but nah it just gets worse haha

Just a Filipino Post with a Rough English Translation

Matagal na akong walang ganang mabuhay.

I have not had the drive to live for a long time.

Just Two Nightmares

I had a nightmare. Twice. I woke up from the first one but went back to sleep. I just woke up from the second one. What's weird was I got a feeling of Deja vu with both. The second one I dreamt of someone's drunk demented dad trying to kill me. Had to run and fight back. I want to be more detailed with this but I can't write. The first one was a series of events. All I can write down now was me hanging out with Jean in the end and me ending up shitting my pants.

Just Begging Myself

Don't kill yourself tonight, please.

Just Waiting for Myself to Finally Snap

The world is too noisy and crazy, and I want to hurt myself for it.

Just Saying This to Myself As I Press My Fingers to My Eyes and Palms to My Cheeks

Stop thinking about dying. Stop thinking about dying.Stop thinking about dying.Stop thinking about dying.Stop thinking about dying.Stop thinking about dying.Stop thinking about dying.Stop thinking about dying.Stop thinking about dying.Stop thinking about dying.Stop thinking about dying.Stop thinking about dying.Stop thinking about dying.Stop thinking about dying.Stop thinking about dying.

Just Some Stolen Gifs To Visualize My Current State

Just Don't Read This, It's Nonsense

Just woke up. I don't have anything to say right now so I'm just gonna do what I have done in a few blog posts in the past which is typing what ever comes to mind because my mind can come up with a lot of different stuff and I just want to type or write them down.

Dragons.
You.
Ah, it doesn't help when I'm listening to a song because the lyrics come to mind and I type them down. Lol I'm listening to Darlin' by Between the Trees on loop.
What is my purpose in life?
Why am I here?
Why do I always ask these questions? They don't do me any good. I felt like I have already answered these questions before but why do I have the need to ask them again?

Darlin'
Crimes of wanting you badly
Ok I'm going to stop listening so I can hear my mind.

There. What do I have to say? Is my mind a different person within me or is it me? Why do I refer to my mind in a third person when it is still just me? Or is my mind really different? Why do I want to listen to a Secondhand Serenade song now? What?

I just thought of lyrics but I don't think I should type them down. Lol
Ah.
I should end this post here because I don't want to feel bad. It usually goes that way every time I try to listen to my thoughts.

Just Flashback Time

I don't know why right now I'm thinking about the time back in 1st yr hs while I was being observant of how the pin also turns when opening and closing the blades of my scissors that all of the sudden my math teacher yells "Jema! Stop playing with those scissors!" when I wasn't playing with them at all :(

Just Posting a Repetitive Thought So I Wouldn't Do It

I'm.gonna fucking kill myself.

Just Have an Impulse to Ghost

Okay, I don't know what's going on. Somehow, a guy from VRChat got attached. I'm trying to remember when we met. I just know that a mutual friend was in a world, then he came second after the other friend came. Idk. Was it this week? Last week? How many days has it been? My sleeping schedule's fucked up that I can't tell the days. Lol Oh yeah, I can check the first time we talked in Discord. It was that day.

Okay, it was 8 days ago, June 10. How is it 8 days already? Lol

Ah man, I need to disappear again.

Just Another Random Wave of Something

Ugh I feel like crying XD

Just a Train of Thought I Had Earlier

I'm like what if you jumped and then I'm also like nah it ain't high enough but I'm also like it's high enough to hurt yourself which you want but lastly I'm like nah that's idiotic and stupid and you don't like stupidity.

Just a Different Address

I changed my blog address. Don't want the people who previously viewed my blog easily view my blog now.

Just Saying It Straightforward

I'm pretty sure I'm going to kill myself. Not any time soon. That would be too obvious. Lol

Just a Poem About Self Love

"I hate myself"
No, darling, do not say that
It is contagious
You would not want me hating myself, too
Which I have, most of my life

"I hate myself"
Darling, you are beautiful,
You are tenderhearted
You do not deserve to do that to yourself
You deserve to be kind to yourself

"I am beautiful"
Yes, darling, you are
Own it and mean it
That is truth
Do not let your false beliefs trick you into thinking you are not

"I love myself"
...
...
I am happy, darling, that you have said that
For I love you, too

Just Uploading My Lips

Part of being my own cheerleader and changing to a more positive mindset is to focus on the things I love about myself. For now, I am saying that I love my lips. I am not letting myself feel like shit again.

Just Being My Own Cheerleader

I have decided to be kind to myself now. I'm getting my shit together again. It may fall apart again, but I'm not going to let it break me. I'm done with being angsty.