Just Accidentally Went on a Mood Dip

Ah gahd I need meds but I don't want to deal with the side effects. Too expensive too lol so yeah gotta deal with this shit naturally like God intended me to do *wears shades and finger guns*

Just a Series of Questions Starting with the Same Thing

Have you ever been so depressed that you muted everyone's stories because the time pressure to view them gives you anxiety?

Have you ever been so depressed that you unfollowed a lot of people just because you did not like the stuff they share? Even when you do not have anything against them personally?

Have you ever been so depressed that you disappear from everyone every now and then?

Have you ever been so depressed that you cried for no reason at all?

Have you ever been so depressed that jokes or memes could not make you laugh anymore?

Have you ever been so depressed that when you genuinely laugh, you remember how depressed you are, and then you stopped laughing, and you get more depressed?

Have you ever been so depressed that you use dark jokes as a coping mechanism?

Have you ever been so depressed that it was hard for you to love the people you love?

Have you ever been so depressed that you would not want to try any more?

Have you ever been so depressed that when you talk about it, you do it so casually that you forget it is a taboo topic?

Have you ever been so depressed that you tried to take away your life?

Lmao. I don't think I've been that depressed.

Just Feeling Good

 Serotonin fucking feels good man. I hope I don't run out.

Just Live

 I can't talk. I'm in a VC with him. I can't chat and be talkative. I should really sleep since I've been up since 6 am.

Just Not Cut Out for These Stuff

Helping mom online shop for plants makes me tired and depressed. Teaching her how to use the computer is fucking killing me. I sound selfish and arrogant but fuck I don't have the mental capacity and patience.

Just Doubting Myself

 Am I seriously going to date a white guy 10,000 kilometers away?

Just Typing with Each Sentences Separated, Mostly

I'm still not dead.
I still wish I were not here.
I deactivated Facebook again last Sunday.
I'm easily depressed. 

However, someone's there.
I'm not making him my reason for living or anything.
I just feel like I should stay for a while for his sake.
He has invested quite a bit on me. I don't want to be that guy.

I feel like sleeping right now.

I've been playing Stardew Valley for a few days now.

Kinda hungry but I'm getting back on my fasting habit of only eating from 9am to 5pm again.

I hate my belly. It's quite big.

I wanna eat. I should sleep so I wouldn't eat.

Yeah, I'll do that after a few minutes.

I feel irritation right now.

See ya.