Just Pain, to Generalize

What the fuck is this

Just a Tree Frog

 There was a tree frog on our wall. Why was there a tree frog on our wall? In Ph?

Just Making This Blog Not Seem Like It's Dead

My paternal grandmother died 3 days ago. Also I didn't kill myself two weeks ago. July isn't a good month to kms anymore cuz it's gonna be the month where there's a death anniversary. Lol. The thought's still there. I don't think it's ever going to go. I can just only distract myself from it. I'll forget about it when I'm occupied. 

I've been working out a lot. I hope I'm consistent this time. I hope I don't stop. I hope my rest days won't become rest weeks or rest months. I hope I reach 55 kilos. 

I don't want to say everything's good now because it always gets jinxed a while later. This is just a quick update to this online journal.

Just Drew One of the Prompts That Has Been on My List Since Forever

Oh wow it's July already. July 9th, to be exact. The date that past me postponed the "kys" schedule last February. Lmaooo. This past week I've been ruminating about this. I really don't want to be reach thirty. I also don't want to be 24 years old, which I will be in October. Three months left for that. I don't know man. I really want to. But since I updated this blog, I probably won't.

Anyway, I was feeling like shit last night after a long streak of not feeling so. I chose a coping mechanism out of many I could choose, and it was coloring a coloring book. It didn't work and had the urge to draw instead. So I drew the one below and I felt better.