Just Don't Want to Snowball

Alright. All the previous entries with the positivity and what not are starting to face about. I'm feeling a descent coming. PMS? Need to up the dosage? Who knows. Hopefully I'll feel better after my period. Hopefully I'll get it soon and get the suspense done. Maybe this slow descent came from him telling me about one of his pasts that he didn't want to talk about. I want to forget about it because I know he's a changed person. I shouldn't ignore how I feel, though. Fuck. I'll get over this. Hopefully soon. I don't want to feel like this again.

Just What My Current Thought Is

I'm so excited for my new boots but they're still going to ship it on March 1. :')

Also, I haven't posted much about my dreams here lately. I've mostly been texting them to my fiancé. The sleep drunkenness can't let me have the motivation to open this site. I want to do it more often tho :')

I'm smelling bulad from downstairs. I want to eat already. I still have to wait 7 more hours before I break my fast. I'm already 57.75 kg last Saturday. I'm almost there. Don't let temptations ruin it now. I can do it 

I guess when I'm less depressed, I write less. I do it to cope. Writing happy thoughts should be a regular thing, too. You tend to manifest it when you do.

Just Valentine's Day

I wanted to write what I was up to last 14th. It wasn't that much, but I actually had plans, which is a change, because everyday has only been on my laptop, the cats, small chores, jogging, Pokemon Go, and Discord. 

Anyway, I went out with my best friend. The original plan was to have lunch at 11 am. Then, she got notified that her gift for her crush was arriving that day. So, we waited for it to arrive and postponed it. It arrived around 1 pm. We planned for 4:30 pm. There was so much traffic around Quirino. I wanted to just walk it. I waited for what it felt like 20 minutes before I decided to get out of the jeep and walk.

I got to the restaurant first. It was Kalye't Kusina. She arrived after a while. I ordered the chicken with the spaghetti and the oreo ice cream pancake, but they ran out so I replaced it with oreo milk shake. She ordered the spaghetti with meatballs and aussie chips. She talked about her crush. She didn't finish her food and had it to go. 

We walked to the restaurant where her crush works at. The plan was to have me give it to him so she would remain anonymous. I went there and it turned out that he already clocked out since he was the opener for that day. I still left the gift there to the hostess for them to give it to him the next day.

After that, we walked to Roxas because I wanted to search for boots. We found some but they didn't fit me. It rained. We went home. I don't want to be overdetailed with this story. It's mostly boring XD

Anyway, that's it. Today, though, we found the little calico kitty dead. It was smelling since yesterday. My menstrual cup also arrived today. I want to edit a Stardew Valley video. I recorded a gameplay earlier but Vegas Pro won't read it. Speaking of which, it just finished converting now. The next time, I will use DaVinci Resolve.

Just a Follow-Up from Yesterday's Entry

I forgot to mention in the previous blogpost that our white cat had jaundice last week and I cried about it. I went to buy some Dextrose and catfood to make him better. He's better now. We didn't need to take him to the vet. I used the money to buy the loml a gift. I also bought something for myself from Shopee. 

Right now, I seem to want to apply for a job again. Should I? Who knows.

Just a February Update that Should Probably be Worth for a Few Missing Days of Posting

 I'm gonna blog right now before I forget again.

Not sure what about, though.

Well, it's February 10. It has been 17 days since I posted here.

I had my interview on January 24. It was okay. However on the 26th, I got the email about not getting the job. It's fine, though. I didn't know what to do by the time the embassy replies for our marriage application. I'm not sure if I could still work for the company when I move to Germany.

On January 29, I completed all the achievements for Muse Dash, after repeatedly playing Say Fanfare! a lot of times. It was... ugh. XD I got the 100% accuracy once, when I used Christmas Gift Rin. It turns out it doesn't count because you still hit a great instead of a perfect. I tried using Little Devil Marija to motivate myself to hit greats less but I am NOT really good at that. lmao I looked up tips on how to get 100% and saw that I should use The Girl in Black Marija. After more repititions of the song and attempts on other songs, I finally got it. Finally.

I went to the doctor on January 30 to get a new prescription. I was going to the pharmacy with only 25mg on it, so I had it changed to 50mg. I walked around the mall to search for a ring for Shiloh and a laptop stand. I looked for a carpet, too. I found some, but I didn't buy one. Now, I wish I would have bought that big circular one so I wouldn't get my floor dirty from rolling my chair around the room. I think I also walked all the way home that day while playing Pokemon Go. Oh yeah, I was playing Pokemon Go while waiting for the doctor. She still hasn't arrived when I got there. I always know not to arrive early but I still do it anyway. Lol.

I think I just spent most of my days playing games and watching series. I always make time to go out for a walk or a jog for 30mins or more from at around 4pm-8pm.

I weighed 58.85kg on the morning of February 4. I eat less rice now. I mostly don't eat before 11am and after 5pm, too. I think I'm almost at my goal of 50kg-55kg.

What else should I type about from the 17 days since the last post? Lol

I tried to learned To Zanarkand. I'm almost there. I just need to be faster when transitioning to different notes. 

I should record Stardew Valley for my new video on YouTube. Draw a thumbnail, too.

I also want to apply for a job. A temp job. Good for 3 months.

My best friend and I planned to meet on the 14th so I could give a gift to her crush, from her, anonimously.

I've got all these ideas written down, and I'm not doing much about them. lmao. I wish I could do everything without effort so I get them done fast, and not have any backlogs. I'm just human, though. A mentally ill one. Still, with all the free time I have, I should be able to do it.