Just Thinking About the Decision about My Current Subjects

My heart isn't into my studies anymore. I applied for a job two days ago. I enrolled 3 subjects for this semester, one for each term, and PE. I'm thinking if I should just not attend them or submit activities, or attend them and pay for the tuition, just for the visa. I only need to be a student for the visa, right? I don't have to be a good student and actually attend the classes? What if they ask me about it during the interview? Maybe I should really just suck it up and just do the few units I have. It's not that much work anyway. Future me would probably be glad that I took them. On the other hand, I don't really want to. It's too much work, actually. Studying and taking exams. After I get my visa, I could just withdraw. But that doesn't seem likely to happen anytime soon. Not sure if they'll approve by March, which is the deadline for the withdrawal.

Another thing, physics, from last semester. Prof told me I can have only one requirement after the sem. Fuck this. She now says that I need to take the exams. What if I just tell her to just drop it so it would be over? She replies for every 5 days. I don't want to take the exams. I don't want to study for the stuff I already quit on. Why am I bipolar aasDFSADFWEfzdsfa

Okay. After all that I typed, I'm still conflicted to whether I should attend classes or not. Maybe I should read everything again. I didn't write that many points, did I? lol aSDFSDFSAAAAAAAAAAA I wanna screeeaaaaammmmmmmsmdfsdmfmsdfmsdf

I mean, it's just only nine weeks of one subject, right? Only four exams every two weeks and then I'm done. Why is everything so complicated asdfsfasdfasdfsdf

I should flip a coin and see whether I'm disappointed or not.

Tails. Not attend. I like it. Not disappointed. But then again there's a conscience saying I should attend. Ethics... what an ironic and coincidental subject to think about attending or not lmaooo I didn't attend the class yesterday evening. I already started being absent, why not go all the way? Should I? Is this right? I'm thinking about physics again, too. Alright, yknow what I'm just gonna let this all pass and just flooooowwwwww and yeah just let the days happen and just yeah ok im done

Just Postponing My Workout because of Timing

My stomach started cramping just when I was about to exercise 45 minutes ago. Great timing you whiny body of mine lmao It's its way of telling me it doesn't want to today. I may also be getting my period.

Just Woke Up Early Again

I don't like how I end up waking up earlier than I would like to. I want to sleep more, please. 

I enrolled 3 subjects for this semester. All general education subjects, no major ones that have math or chemistry. I don't know if I should attend them for real or just wait until I get my visa and withdraw from everything. The deadline for withdrawal is in March, I think. I hope everything gets processed before then. I don't really want to subject myself to online classes anymore and just work. I haven't applied for a job yet. I kept procrastinating for it. I just wrote down on my white board that I'd do it on Wednesday next week.

Just Anxious

I've been having anxiety since last night. Why would that happen? I only went out with friends to watch Spiderman: No Way Home. I slept at around 10:20 pm, woke up at 1:00 am because I had a nightmare. Couldn't go back to sleep until around 5:30 am. What is happening q_q