Friday, February 28, 2025

Just that This is How It Goes, I Guess

New video uploaded today.


I don't know, man. I just... I don't know what to do as a job. I keep looking at Ausbildung lists. There's a lot of steps. And I imagine myself doing the job description. At first, I'm like, alright, it's doable. That seems cool in my head. And then, these flashes in my mind about posts of people being unhappy with a similar job. I mean, a job isn't always fun. And how can I even decide anything that hasn't even happened yet, and something that I haven't at least taken a step towards into. 

Anyway, husband just arrived. End post.

Monday, February 03, 2025

Just Uploaded Another Video Last Friday

 I don't think it's going too good. No one's watching it. 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D91rPyrVci0

Yesterday, I went to church and prayed for some guidance. It was the presentation of child Jesus to the temple. There was a couple of kids present and it was a rare sight to see. 

The suicidal thoughts are there, but it's not as bad as before. It's still bad. This YouTube thing and the career thing. I'm getting older and the gap in my resume is getting wider and wider. It's already February. I should plan on what I want to do with my life here.