Just Me Admitting Something

I tried to kill myself...

Yes, I admit it. Even when I told you I wasn't suicidal before, I am telling you now that I am suicidal.

I hate it that I am now. I hate it that my younger self won't like me anymore. But I still have the power to change that. Or do I? Thanks to one of you, I have the inspiration now. When in doubt, make good art. I now make good art by coloring an adult coloring book.

So what do we say to death? Not today! Also, it was the first time in 4 months that I went to church earlier. I still don't feel the spirituality come back yet. But slowly filling me up is good, too.

Sir, I miss you. And I think I am falling for you. Please make it stop. Thanks