I let my bubbly personality overshadow the melancholy that occurs most of the time. At first glance, you wouldn't notice how gloomy of a person I actually am. I mean, it's like punk rock; the lyrics are all depressing but the music is all upbeat. It's not that I am pretending to be cheerful. The words I sometimes slip out are all dark but then I chuckle at them as if I don't mean it. The chuckle comes out naturally. Its purpose is not to cover up the sadness. I mean, I even smile as I say them. The smile isn't fake. The smile is involuntary.
Maybe people would notice my aura, that it's actually depressing, when I am at my idle moments, when I am just chilling. The vibe I'm giving off is all gray and people would see it. I have a friend who taught me that you could actually see the color of a person's aura. I tried it and hey, you could actually see it. Anyone can see it.
I don't know, I just feel different today. I had 10 hours of sleep for work. Maybe I've overslept. Oversleeping is unhealthy as they said. I have neck pain when I use the laptop. I usually don't feel sleepy at this hour but I am. Maybe I'll be awake later.
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