Just Feeling the Mood Disorder Right Now

Ran out quetiapine because all the pharmacies nearby don't have it. Now I can't sleep. Stopped taking lamictal last week, too, because it gave me the rash. Brain function is compromised so it would likely affect academic performance. Now I gotta choose (if the doctor will actually be in later cuz the secretary is absjeikdmsiakwjshsh) whether to attend class later or go to the psyc appointment. Why must life be lived in ultra hard mode