Just Blogging in Bed

This whole month I've been playing Sea of Stars and Dota 2. In the back of my mind I'm thinking that I really should make the Watching Frieren as a German Learner video. Starting is so very hard. I can't. 

I kept looking up for Fibromyalgia, Lupus, and Endometriosis. Maybe it's none of these, and my shins and legs just need a lot of rest. The difficulty in breathing sometimes? Maybe it's just anxiety. Ugh. Man.

This day and yesterday, we were looking for a psychiatrist since my meds are running out next week. I think we've waited this long because of the insurance update. 

Sometimes I dream that I'm still back in the Philippines. Sometimes I dream that I'm walking in for a check up easily, not needing any appointments, just needing to wait for hours. Sometimes, when I'm half asleep, I forget that the guy sleeping next to me is my husband lol that I get shy if I bothered him with cuddles. 

Just thought of writing because I haven't yet for this month. And I don't want this blog to die.