Just May or May Not Be My Final Post; We'll See

Today's Wednesday.

I have a sure plan to off myself today. I am going to do it. Or am I? I'm still having doubts. What if I fail? What consequence would I face? I don't really want to do this anymore. I'm sick of everything. I'm sick of the cycle. The repetition. Everything lost its meaning (semantic satiation). I want to leave. I want to escape. This plan isn't foolproof. I don't think I'm planning this through. What if someone saves me? I don't want to be saved. I don't want to go to work later at 11 pm. I don't want to go home and sleep. I just want to die. Me writing this here will jinx all of this and maybe I'm going to survive to write another post tomorrow. There's still the voice inside my head that wants to live. I want to kill it. I want it to shut up. It's almost time to log out from work. It's almost time for my plan to be initiated. I wonder what will happen later. That I'd change my mind and just go home and play a game of DotA. We'll find out if I don't update this blog anymore. Everyone is expecting to see me tonight. Lol. What if I don't? What if I am? I don't know what to do anymore if I am. One thing's for sure; it's that we'll see.

Update: I'm not doing it.