Just a Little Rant Coming From What Happened Last Saturday

I'm not sure if the viewers in my stats are just bots or actual people reading my blog. Don't get me wrong, I don't need a lot of people viewing my blog. I just created this to keep track of my thoughts and I also needed an outlet every time I feel like shit.

Social anxiety sucks. Ruins a lot of stuff. Past trauma and genetics that brought it up has destroyed my ability to socialize. My verbal communication skills are fucked up. I'm afraid that people will get tired of adjusting for me. I'm trying hard to improve. Being someone who got 96% introversion for their personality test, I would need more effort. Unless I drink every time I go out, I don't think I'd stop being mute. It also sucks that I get drained fast when I'm socializing. It makes me more quiet than I already am being.

I just want to say this. If you're a parent, you should talk to your kids often so it wouldn't be a problem growing up. But then again, they probably did, and I was just really shy. Was I really just shy or was I already an anxiety-ridden kid? Fuck. Also, if you have a younger sibling, be nice to them so they wouldn't feel like shit, like they wouldn't feel like you didn't really want them to exist, that they feel really bad for existing or for being born.