Just a September Entry Cuz I Thought About Updating This Blog

My left wrist hurts. Not sure it's just muscle pain from doing arm exercises last Thursday, or an injury. Ugh. Or maybe stress. I've been often getting headaches this week. Or maybe last week. It's the stress. I bought lavender essential oil last Thursday, to help with the stress. Maybe I'll buy some Stresstabs tomorrow, for the stress.

My birthday's nearing. I want to die before then. It's probably not gonna happen like the past wants of dying. Can stress kill you? Maybe I should stop trying to alleviate it and just let it take me. Ugh. I just googled if stress could kill you but stress itself can't. Cardiovascular problems that arise from it will. I've been working out consistently last month, so I don't think it's gonna happen.

This morning, I recorded the video for our PE exam. I really think I shouldn't be taking PE anymore. Whatever.

Every subject I'm taking up is getting harder and complicated each week. They are not really slowing down. How did people deal with this? 

I hope it gets easier some time soon. Every now and then, I consider going to therapy. My savings are depleting. I don't think I could go to therapy. But I also think I could. Ugh, having bipolar disorder sucks.