Just Trying to Be a Good Catholic

My hormones are peaking and I'm going to get my period soon. I've been aroused most of the day. I went to confession last Friday and when I was doing my penance I teared up a little bit because I felt relieved from the burden of guilt, and I was glad that God guided me and listened to my prayer. He has always been there when I'm not feeling too well with my faith. I went to the doc that day, too, and I wasn't sure if I would still even have the time to go confess, but the secretary told me to come to the doc's office earlier than I planned, and I was able to cross out all of the things I planned to do on that day, on my to do list. Anyway, I'm back to abstinence. I've done it up until I was 22 years old. I can do it again, especially with my faith in Him. 

Last Sunday, I woke up to Seiya's message about their break up and how I was a part of it. I believe he was just finding somewhere to take it out on. I want him to really reflect and open his eyes more. One shouldn't rely on one person for their happiness. One shouldn't really base their happiness on one relationship. He still has a whole life ahead of him. It's not the end of the world. Yuta met me when he was 27. I met him when I was 22. Anyway, I was having anxiety after that. I still have a little bit now. It's probably just exacerbated with my menstrual cycle that's coming soon. Maybe that's also why I'm feeling the arousal. Stress can cause arousal, and I'm not liking it, fam. I just try to breathe deeply. Breathing deeply is relaxing. I've got yoga to thank for helping me appreciate breathing more. 

Last week, I uploaded a video about me and Yuta speaking German. It got 3000 views! :D I didn't really expect that. I'm on the process of making a part 2, but I'm not sure how that would fare. Is fare the right word? Idk. It really put me in a really good mood. It's making me think that I've got a shot at making it. Who knows? Maybe God will guide me :3