Just Lots of Stuff

I've decided to stop going to therapy and this is the last week my meds will last. I'm unemployed and don't want to rely on other people anymore. I'm in a low mood now. I think part of it is from walking too much. Is 10,000 steps a day even okay? I feel weak and fatigued. My feet and hands feel cold. I hate the way I look. I wish I were skinnier.

I have to go back to church tomorrow because I didn't return as soon as possible and he couldn't find my baptism certificate anymore. Once I get it, it's only the passport pictures and the passport certificate left.

I lost a game of DOTA earlier. But I have been feeling like this for a while already, like, mild suicidal thoughts.

Maybe I should get checked. I know I have low blood pressure from the last few times I got vaccinated (they measured before injecting me). Anyway, it wouldn't be too bad if I died in my sleep from this, not that it's likely to happen.