Saturday, May 23, 2020

Just Describing How I Currently Am

Depression had me nauseous and losing my appetite. I even puked after lunch. Lol. But I ain't even losing any weight which sucks. I hate being alive.

I haven't been regularly making my bed nor washing the dishes nor following my schedule. I feel like shit. Only stayed in Facebook for ten days. I feel nauseous.

I haven't written in my journal for a month. I'm not getting any regular sleep.

I wanna kill myself.

I want to go running. We're not allowed to go outside. I should get a job. I'm not in a good condition to work.

I can't have a bearable conversation with friends. I'm easily irritated.

I'm having cravings. They aren't good cravings. I have to suppress them. I need catharsis. The stuff I do for release isn't enough.

I wonder who has life easy for them. Lucky bastards.

No comments:

Post a Comment