Here I am again, in need of someone to talk to to be able to sleep, but have no one. They're busy. I don't know. Today, I applied for jobs, at VA agencies. Two of them. I don't want to work. I want money. I got up early, did Duolingo early, showered, and got dressed up. Even broke my fast early. However, after eating, I didn't want to go out anymore. The thought of taking calls discouraged me. I thought I would be able to do it. I probably can. There's just something in an act that makes you want to back out the last second. Even now, after I've sent my application to these two companies, I don't want to go through it.
Anyway, one of them wanted a cover letter. I couldn't be bothered anymore and gave in to using ChatGPT. I edited a little bit so it wouldn't use so much flowery words that I wouldn't even come up with myself.
I ate rice today. Ate a LOT. Binignit, too. I'm pretty sure my weight would be heavier compared to last week. I've been doing so well this week, though. It's just that, the previous day has more influence on the weigh in. Ate at 11 pm too. Fck.
I took a mirror selfie. I've took a similar one before. I've been more daring in revealing more skin. I wouldn't go nude, however. I hope my future self keeps it that way. I've been breaking a lot of images my younger self wouldn't have let me do.
5 things to be grateful of again? Okay, sure.
1. Was able to apply despite not being able to go outside.
2. Started the pokestop streak as the same as my catch streak.
3. Didn't completely forget to feed cats.
4. Had the will to wash the dishes.
5. I think I can be grateful with how my body looks now. I still want to lose more fat, but I look pretty decent as I am right now, I guess.
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