Just Journaling

Hello, hello.

Last week, I "interned" for my brother. I did a part of his work for him. It was okay. He paid me for it. Yesterday, I did a small part of his task, too. After that, he had another task which was to create a landing page. I attempted to but it was taking me time, so I asked him to do it while I watch. He wasn't in the zone for it so he just told me to watch the video tutorials he has in the laptop.

Earlier, after watching a few of his tutorial videos, I felt depressed. I told him I'm "resigning". He then fell into a bad mood saying that I just gave him extra work (this was after I returned his laptop after coming back home from my walk which I will now reiterate in the next sentences). Whatever. I laid in bed for a while. I wanted to stay in bed. I got up and played Pokemon Go and walked. I did yoga after.

Now, I'm thinking of enrolling for a B1 German course to spend my time for the next 2 months. This getting married thing takes SO MUCH TIME. SOMEONE SHOULD WRITE THE PROPER EXPECTATIONS ON ONE SITE AS A SUMMARY. I could have been more productive in the last few months, this whole year, if we knew we weren't getting married just yet. Maybe I'll do a summary for it one of these days. 

I should stop ranting and redirect this whole post into something I'm grateful for. Let's see... I'm glad I was able to buy make up and was able to practice for a bit. It looks like I could do it after all. I just need to practice more on my hair. I couldn't decide yet on how I should style it. My fiancé insists on getting it styled by a professional. I want it to do it myself so I can save. 

I'm happy I for my dress and shoes. I'm happy that I was able to buy a lot of stuff last month. I bought a bra and I'm happy that I know which size to buy next time (I bought a test bra to see which one fits. Lol)

I'm happy that I have a sweet and loving fiancé. He loves me so much and I love him so much despite the distance between us. I'm happy that we've lasted this long. I love his patience and understanding. I'm thankful he has a stable job because I can't do it for now XD I'm glad that he's there when I'm in despair. I'm grateful he stays with me even when he could have chosen someone else, someone better. I love him so much. I want to write more. There's more to write for another day. It will never run out given how there is so much love between us. Soon™, we will be together in each other's presence again. I love you, mein Schatz.