This letter isn't for you but for someone from my past. I just want to get this out.
How are you? I wonder what you're doing right now. Do you still think about me? I really miss you. It was so perfect. Why did you have to do that? I really liked you. It was a heartwarming story. It was too soon. I want you to talk to me like we used to. We can't anymore. A lot has changed.
I never regretted you. I don't want us to be just friends. But it felt like you really wanted me to let you go before anything has even started. People improve, right?
You kept saying you don't deserve me. Why don't you do better so you could actually deserve me? Are you implying that it's impossible for you to ever change? I am not her. Why can't you leave your mistakes in the past? Why do you have to bring it up with us?
Man, I don't like being like this. I am not like this. I'm a person whose main focus is logic. Romanticism is just not my taste in life. You fucked my brain cells up. My love for rationality is compromised. I used to spend my past times with thoughts filled with creativity and inventions. Now, it's just filled with you and how you're such an asshole for not giving me a chance to give you a chance. It's messed up. I don't want to be sad about things like this. I'm not even sad. I'm just disappointed.
Anyway, I hope you hit me up with an "I miss you" again. I don't think you will. You're someone who never tries. As an analytical person that I am, I just know that you won't. Whatever. I don't want to be the one who's going to reach out. It's just something you have to learn yourself.
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